I have some posts ready to share for tomorrow but it felt so odd to not post something today. It’s Friday now but still. I had a lovely day at Bodega Bay that I can’t wait to share with you all about later today. I’m just up late at night really thinking as per usual. Thinking about my future. Thinking about how to improve myself. Thinking about how to let the past go. Thinking about what I’m going to eat tomorrow, what I’m going to do. Then it hit me, I just really need to listen to the universe and just relax! I didn’t realize that I was getting caught up in the thoughts of the future when I really need to focus on the now. Finding a balance of being in the now but also planning for the future. I get caught up wondering if I’m doing the right thing or not. But I have to remind myself over and over again that I am doing exactly what I need to do. Relaxing does not mean I’m lazy and worthless. However long we have left in this stay at home order, this is the perfect time to just freaking relax! When will we ever get another chance like this where we can just stay the f at home? I’m also new to learning how to relax so I don’t really know what it looks like besides napping. How do I do something that helps me relax but also makes me feel productive? Who knows! Does anyone have any ideas? I think I will take tomorrow as a day to learn new ways to relax and be cooler than a polar bears toenails. Maybe I’ll cook a hearty meal and watch Eat, Pray, Love for the millionth time. Thank god no beauty supply stores are open right now because I would’ve dyed my hair countless of times already.

Omg I forget that I have books to read!!! Am I the only person who forgets that they read? I have a filled book shelf staring at me as if they were just there for display. Anyways good night, I will be reading all day tomorrow. And tomorrow will just be yet another day that I go without cold brew. Sigh. Also have a craving for tortas. And samosas.