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Middle of the Night Thoughts

Sol and I were watching The Shining before bed and I totally knocked out before it even ended lol. I think I fell asleep around 10-11? And I woke up around 1am. I made the mistake of not going straight to bed so now I am wide awake, cleaning my room and journaling my little brain away.

Luckily I don’t have to be up too early and all that I have planned for tomorrow is simply to just go to the city with Sol so we can go buy some crystals so I am so excited about that! I’ve been wanting to go to Haight street for the longest.

Anywho, me just being wide awake and everything, I look forward to the day where I have a partner who totally understands my fluctuating energy levels. I find so much peace in that :’) Like wow, someone is going to love me so much AND be so damn understanding of my random ass?! Pure bliss. It’s the simple things in life like having someone just get you that really remind you to have fun in this life! We’re already having to deal with staying alive, let’s have some fun while doing so.

I’m not sure why I find it so funny I find my unique qualities to be my most favorite so I suppose that’s why I love pointing them out. Staying up late at night letting my mind be as creative as it wants is my favorite activity. But I also love going to bed early and getting my full 8 hours of sleep.

OMG!!!! So I’ve been trying to find my words for this and I finally got it. My breakdown last October led me to making some drastic changes for my well-being. So the person I am now, the happy Alexis, it’s all because of the changes I made and now I am seeing the results 🙂 I used to have such trouble with sleep! I would have trouble with staying asleep, nightmares, and all that fun stuff. But as I have come to just be who I am today after implementing so many changes in my life, I honestly never complain about my sleep anymore! Sleep and I are BFFs and have a mutual understanding of each other now.

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You know, I guess I have just been reveling in my progress! I deserve to celebrate who I am everyday, we literally all do! Only we ourselves know how much work it has truly taken to get where we are today, so god damn, we better celebrate that! I like that my close friends and I are always hyping each other up and telling each other how proud we are of each of our progress. I think that is so beautiful, to be surrounded by people who want to grow and expand just like you, to have people who support your vision because they have similar ones. I am so lucky to have them 🙂

You know, I really do need a partner who lovessss watching movies just as much as I am. And one who enjoys scary movies too! I’ve dated guys who are scared of horror movies and ugh, that brought me nothing but annoyance and frustration, oops.

I know I don’t have the most noticeable lisp in the world but I acknowledge its existence! And I for one totally like it. I love Drew Barrymore and she never lets her lisp stop her. I admire that.

I just simply refuse to wait until I am in my 40’s to take my head out of my ass. I don’t want to wait until I have my footing to make my dream life a reality. I want to be comfortable in the now. I want to be constantly ascending. I refuse to be stuck and tied down. I refuse to be stagnant.

My whole life, people would give me speeches about how to be a better person. They would feed motivational words and well now, I am listening and implementing those ideas into my everyday life. I want my life to be balanced with my personal and outside life.

I am too expansive to be on a narrow road. I am the freaking architect of my own life!!! I am committed to the process and I have fun while doing it.

Okay my energy spike is going away. I’m going to bed now 🙂