• Sol and I were talking about learning to speak up about our wants in relationships. It’s so weird how girls are made to be seen as super picky or whatever if we speak our minds but when guys do it, then it’s totally normal. I guess the best way to describe it is that some people tend to overcompensate for their insecurity by acting like they aren’t bothered by it and that they have total power over how they feel about themselves. When in actuality, they have little man syndrome.

• I really appreciate it when a partner’s confidence shows in the way they assert themselves. I don’t want someone who feels sorry for themselves. I don’t have the emotional capacity to handle that anymore.
• I look forward to having a partner who enjoys listening to my endless ideas
• First Wives Club always makes me smile :’)

• Sol goes home today and I’m kinda sad! I like having someone around. It’s so cool to have your daily schedule blend with someone else’s so seamlessly. I think that is so beautiful
• It makes me feel so happy to know that I really have weeded out so much negativity from my life. And the fact that I am so secure within myself and my path?! I never could have even imagined!!
• Life would be a whole lot better if they didn’t let their ego control them
• I miss the freaking beach 🙁 My body has been aching to go back to the water. Hopefully soon!
• How does one go about resolving some of their trauma if it requires another party who might not even care to even listen??
• I am sooooooooooooo excited for October!! It’s my favorite month besides June. So many great things always happen in October, I think it’s because fall decorations just really bring out the early holiday spirit
• Healing myself is really healing my lineage so I honestly should give myself more credit! I really did that, wow
• Someone besides myself drove my car for the first time and I couldn’t be happier that it be my grandpa. I like that I’m a car girl lol. Shoutout to my grandpa/uncles/brother for some of my favorite qualities.
• Honestly, I am such a good driver, it amazes me. But don’t get me wrong, I have run over my fair share of curbs lol. Now that I have a car that I love and care for with all my heart, I treat it so kindly!

• Lol, I just need to give myself a pat on the back everyday for really being able to manage my bipolar disorder without the use of prescription pills for the last few months! I’m still amazed actually.
• It takes guts to heal yourself. Many people are comfortable with projecting
• I’ve been spending more time away from technology as a whole and ugh I swear, my brain feels so much better! It’s honestly all about just finding a balance that works for you.
• The best thing I have taught myself was to not over-explain as much as I used to. It really is a trauma response
• I really love myself dude
• I’ve been thinking about the ceramic pieces I used to make in high school and how I totally lost my favorite one which had a triceratops on it :/
• I really freaking miss getting tattoos! I just need to feeeeel a little something while I get some art on me. My next tattoo will definitely be one of my own drawings so I can’t wait to see how that turns out
• I’ve been nicer to brain and it has been very appreciative of that
• I had a migraine that lasted hours today, totally not fun. I wonder why. PMS?
• It’s weird having an IUD because I still get my period but it’s super rare. And when I do get my period, I honestly can’t tell the difference between spotting and an actual period. I got my IUD at 19, and the cramps have yet to go away. Being a woman is hard.
• Sometimes I wonder if me being celibate is worth it but then I am reminded that it definitely is. Plus, I already made it this far so I’m just going to see it until the end
• There are moments when I feel myself want to slip away into a tunnel of anxiety but then I remind myself that I am exactly where I need to be and that the best thing I could ever do is just be in the moment and focus on the bright side
• When I was a little kid, my favorite books to read were about dinosaurs and also the Junie B. Jones series. You could say I was pretty cool, lol
• I really do influence the people I encounter in such positive ways!!!

I hope I find the right words one day to describe my healing process and evolution over time.

XoXo,

Alexis